July 22, 2013

  • Multiple Personalities!

    I always ask friends who know me in real life if how I come off in xanga is how I come off in real life. 

    The other day a friend was telling me that between me in real life, in text messages, and on FB, she would think I were 3 different people. I asked her how.

    1. In real life I am very calm. It’s rare that I get upset or excited over anything. My demeanor is very lady like, polite, and guarded and I rarely let loose to do anything crazy. In one on one situations, I am chatty but my voice is low, lower than how you would imagine it would be when you see me. So I sound serious and almost cynical at times. 

    2. In text, I am very blunt and abrupt. It’s because I hate texting! I only text when I absolutely need to, and I don’t spend any extra time on the please and thanks you and whatever sugary words people use. Sometimes I re-read it and realize how bitchy I sound so I put a smiley face or a lol to lighten up the mood.

    3. On facebook, I am ALL positive and happy cherry funny and never have an opinion. It’s because my FB is REALLY public, my clients and family have access to it so I want to put out a positive image. I don’t want anyone related to my business to think I have an attitude or that I think lowly of anyone nor do I want to offend anyone (unless something obvious like rapists). I work in the wedding industry, we’re all smiles ALL THE TIME :D

    I think the only people who I REALLY act like myself around is my mom and my husband (even before we were married, he was the ONLY boyfriend that made me feel comfortable enough to  act this way around). With them, I am SUPER emotional and irrational and irritable and happy and silly and demanding LAZY. I dance around to no music, I sing like a mad woman, I cry like a baby, I complain like a lil bitch, I get super affectionate like a child. Won always asks me if my mom of any of friends know I am like this and how he wants to film me someday. My mom asks me if my husband knows I’m like this. LOL

    My in laws, no doubt hear how I am when I am around my husband so they make comments about why I can talk a mile a minute with him and laugh like mad but the second one of them appears, I get super quiet and polite again. Even though they are now my family, I doubt I will ever show this side of me to them. I don’t even show it to my brothers nor did I ever to my dad. I think when I have kids, they will see it. And hopefully they will be as crazy as me so when Won comes home from work he has a zoo at home of his wife and kids singing and dancing like mad peoples. Hahahaha

    In general as a person, I am pretty happy.  I do get upset very easily but I tell myself that people will be who they are and whatever issues they have is really their own issue and I need to remove myself from it and go on to enjoy my life. As for shit that is my own fault, I tell myself it won’t matter in 5 years and so I need to just let it go and enjoy the next day. Since taking on this perspective, I am generally an even happier person. 

    And here are some more wedding pictures from my friends!

     

    Our table pieces… I tried to make it very modern despite being at an asian restaurant. We got lazy about the centerpeices… Flowers are a bitch to do cuz you can’t do them before, you literally have to work on them the night before and everyone’s already tired and irritable and I just didn’t give a shit anymore. Oh well… next time we have a wedding (10 years anniversary, Won promised) I will hire a florist to do it. I thought it would be fun to do and I can live out my secret dream of being a florist, but it’s really not fun at all given the time restraint and the fact that I don’t know shit about flowers nor flower arranging. 


    Our sweetheart table and very expensive dinner that we did not eat. A lot of people said the food was amazing… guess I’ll just have to take their word for it. 


    Me being a bomb ass MC for our wedding because I hate it when people give long speeches and jibber jabber about nothing for ever. We just wanted to get this party started. I got a lot of compliments (don’t know if they were sarcastic or not) for giving the shortest and sweetest introduction speech, ever. And me making Won hold my bouquet and stare at me lovingly. Then he got on and told everyone that alcohol is non returnable so they better drink up -____-


    Me giving Won the finger that means.. if you so much as get that frosting even NEAR my face, I will KEEEEEEEEEEEEEL you. So he did the next best thing, and dropped that shit down my boobs!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! SO EMBARASSING!! He claims it was on accident but the way he went for it with his mouth you would thought he planned it all -____-  I got him back on his nose and I was going to be sexy and lick it off his nose but I was too short so we just left it like that.

    Side note: I wore a shit ton of lipstick that day in BRIGHT HOT PINK so everytime we kissed, Won had BRIGHT HOT PINK lipstick too. Hahahahaha


    Slow dancing at our pink and chandelier themed wedding. Side note: We didn’t know how to slow dance despite all the YouTube videos we watched so after like 30 seconds I had to try to catch our DJ’s eyes to be like.. “cut. the. music.” with my eyes… it worked! and he got the party started with some party music instead. *Whew*

         
    Won getting super hot & sexy and taking off his clothes. Our friend (the one who told me about my multiple personality) awkwardy snapped a quick photo with us while the restaurant was breaking down after the party ended. Then that’s me sitting at the entrance yelling at everyone to go the eff home cuz the party is over and I’m tired and wanted to go home to sleep. But everyone kept mingling and wouldn’t leave because they loved each other so much.. Hahahahahahahah

     

     

July 15, 2013

July 7, 2013

  • My Life is Amazing, really!

    Last time Won and I got into a fight and that made me feel really crappy.

    But like magic, everything fixed itself. I sleep normally, my body is acting like it should again! Yay!!

    6 more days until we’re married in front of everybody!! Stressed, I am not as we’ve done everything already! I think it’s just a matter of it all coming together now. I would love to continue to blog and share all our wedding pictures with everyone from here that has been with us through the journey but I guess we will all find out soon enough if that is possible or no. You can add me on FB but I don’t really have guy friends on there (or in life) so I hope I recognize your real name/picture somehow. 

    I was just telling Won I want to continue to blog, be it on xanga or elsewhere… but I kind of liked that xanga was not very popular because it kept my blog out of the reach of my business. With my business name, I am super online social but I’ve always been careful not to link my xanga to any of it. My xanga audience was just xangans and my personal friends who have been silently reading since the dawn of xanga time. I feel like starting a new with another blog, I’ll have to announce it somehow and then sadly it will leak into my business. And as much as I love my personal-down-time-dorky-angry persona and my on-the-go-positive-business-chic persona, I’d like to keep them separate. That and I hate change.. gaaaah.

    With lots of love <3 

June 30, 2013

  • My Life Is Amazingly Good

    But right now I am in the midst of a mental break down. 

    - I haven’t had to work in a long time but these past few days I’ve had jobs lined up and they’re all over 2 hours drive away from me so I am just overall really exhausted from driving, sleeping over at a friend’s house (even though I had a lot of fun, it’s just exhausting when it’s not your own home), and working. 

    - I should be sleeping now considering I have to wake up tomorrow to drive again for 2 hours to work, then sleep over again for one more night. I need all the energy I can get as I can feel my body starting to ache. But now I have all this anxious energy so I can’t sleep. 

    - The weather here has been over 100 degrees so I am just irritable over all.

    - Wedding planning seemed under control because I was ordering all the supplies and getting great deals then. bam bam bam bam. Emails after emails of companies telling me they don’t FUCKING HAVE MY SHIT IN STOCK EVEN THOUGH THEY ALREADY TOOK MY MONEY. WTF… IF YOU CAN”T FULFILL AN ORDER, THEN DON’T FUCKING GO THROUGH AN “APPROVAL PROCESS,” ACCEPT MY MONEY THEN EMAIL ME A WEEK LATER (with my wedding only 2 weeks away) SAYING YOU DON’T HAVE IT IN STOCK.. That happened to me 3 times already. So I have to panic and source through more companies to get what I need. AND I need to keep track of their refunds to make sure I get it!

    -Won would tell me to use our planner but if I do, she will give me industry standard vendors that I know will cost 3x as the price I can find if I did my own research. Wedding planners make things happen, they do not watch your wallet. So I rather save money and find things on my own. And I don’t mind.. IF THESE FUCKING COMPANIES WOULD HOLD UP THEIR FUCKING END OF THE BARGAIN. Maybe this is why you pay 3x as much, don’t have to deal with shit like this.

    - Won keeps pressuring my about my bank account and it’s driving me nuts having to explain why my bank account hasn’t grown much (at least it’s not depleting). I haven’t worked in months. And just now I am starting to work so it takes time for that money to get into my account. Also, my expectations were different, I was under the impression that we weren’t touching my money at all. Since living with Won, we’ve just used his account for everything. So now that I am questioned why this and why that with MY account that we haven’t touched.. I am at a lost of what I did wrong.

    - I finally came clean to my mom about a big secret and to my surprise she was very understanding and accepting but I became really upset with myself that I had to have this secret from my mom in the first place. I wish I could go back and just told my mom the truth in the first place then we could have treated it like a celebration rather than a secret. 

    - I have my fucking period. Big whoop. All girls do right? No. Not the way I have mine. So I was 2 hours away from home in 90 degrees weather after having worked. And suddenly I get my period and the cramps are SOOOO painful it’s literally blinding me as I am driving on the freeway. The pain radiates into a sharp ache in my legs and I know I can’t brake or gas up as strong or fast as I need to drive. I don’t know what I was expecting when I called Won and my Mom crying, but whatever it was.. it was not what I got. So I pulled over into a pretty crowded public park by the ocean and parked under some tree shades and climbed in the back seat and cried until I could doze off for about 20 minutes. I don’t know why but a nap ALWAYS does the trick. It was really sad and desperate that I had to do what I had to do and I don’t wish it on anybody. But it was just enough to give me enough relief from pain to climb back in the front seat and drive the rest of the 2 hours home.

    - Won has been working on the overdrive lately, like 80 – 100 hours a week. So I’ve tried to put all my feelings and frustrations and stress away so that he doesn’t have to deal with melt down bridezilla AND his demanding job. So now it’s building up inside of me. And I can’t lie and say I don’t get mad that he’s not able to soothe me but I am learning to deal with me by myself or by distracting myself with my wonderful friends. I try to pretend I am not a little hurt and annoyed by the fact that I can tell him I am driving 2 hours in the middle of the night and he says okay without concern then an hour later call me and is horrified I am driving by myself in the middle of the night. I guess to have a successful husband, you have to take the good times of him lavishing nice things on you with the bad times of him not really paying attention to you.

    - I don’t really feel at home anywhere. I don’t feel completely living at home with Won because I am new there and my in laws live there too. I have no problems with my in laws but it just doesn’t feel like my own home. I keep the house to how THEY want it, not how I would want it. And my mom recently moved from our house into an independent senior community apartment, where I am spending a few weeks with her) and this for sure doesn’t feel like home. 

    - My health is just skyrocketing out of control. In Seattle I haven’t slept before 4AM since I’ve moved there. And just important things about my body are OFF. I want to wait until after the wedding to go to the doctors because if there is something seriously wrong with me, I don’t want to find out. I only have to hold on for 2 more weeks.

    - Either my phone is a bad one because it only rings half the time or the reception around here is horrible because I never hear any ringing or messages. Only for me to look at my phone to see like 5 texts and missed calls. And Won gets mad that he tries to get a hold of me but I never pick up. I can understand his frustration because I would be too but at the same time, I can’t control  how my phone acts. Sometimes, he swears he’s been calling me for 3 hours but I don’t have even 1 missed call from anyone. And neither of us are lying. So it gets REALLY REALLY REALLY frustrating. Technology is preventing us from responding to each other’s needs. *sigh*

    - We are attending our first dinner party next week and I am so nervous about what to wear and how to talk and eat! A previous client of mine invited us to her July 4th dinner party. I’m hoping to build a relationship with her and her friends especially because I am opening a salon in Bellevue and need to build a relationships in the area! I know we will be the youngest and least experienced couple at the dinner. I hope her kids like me.. that will give me something to do and talk to so I don’t have to talk to the adults and come off as a total young dumb asian girl. I am so good at one on one relationships and SOOO bad in group settings. UGHHHHHHH.

    - So all this driving around lately in the middle of the night and sleeping over totally puts me back to a memory of the very first wedding I ever did like 7 years ago in which I had no idea what I was doing so I had to wake up at 2 in the morning to drive from Davis to San Jose only to completely burn myself out for barely any  money. 7 years later, I figured it out that I was making a living doing this and feeling really comfortable and people were coming to me for advice. Until this weekend where I found myself again driving in the middle of the night from Davis to San Jose and I felt really sad.. like 7 years later and I am only where I started. 

    - Won and I like to joke around and tease each other. But sometimes we do it so much we forget how to be nice and say kind things to each other. It’s as if the teasing and joking becomes the norm. A few years back we had to step back and talk it out and agreed to make a conscious effort to remember to pay attention and be nice to each other. But right now, I feel like we’ve forgotten again. 

    - My email is a mess. Sounds crazy, I know. But I normally have less than 3 emails in Inbox because as soon as I read an email, that night I sit down and respond and reorganize it into the 20 folders I made to file everything away. But since I’ve been on the road so much I haven’t sat down to my laptop in almost a week and there is a jumble of personal, wedding, work, and spam email all in my inbox. And its giving me anxiety. ARHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh

    Update: Since I am not sleeping, I went in and reorganized everything *sigh* 

    To end my ranting post: 

    “I’m going to be happy. I’m going to skip. I’m going to be glad. I’m going to smile a lot. I’m going to be easy. I’m going to count my blessings. I’m going to look for reasons to feel good. I’m going to dig up positive things from the past. I’m going to look for positive things where I stand. I’m going to look for positive things in the future. It is my natural state to be a happy person. It’s natural for me to love and to laugh. This is what is most natural for me. I am a happy person!”

     

June 13, 2013

  • Engagement Rings

    This morning I got an email from Project Wedding about what you should do if you do not like the engagement ring you received, which made me chuckle. Then I went on to read stories about how much brides loved or did not love their engagement rings. I read a few where I thought they shouldn’t be getting married.

    For example, one bride said her fiance got her a big gaudy Cubic Zirconium  that said “MADE IN CHINA” on the inside of the band.. like what you can buy at Claire’s. She said it looked so fake and cheap, she wouldn’t even have chosen it for costume jewelry.  But then.. he goes and buy multiple used cars to build some type of special car ( he already owned one and wanted another one), which cost waaay more than her ring. Not that I think he should spend more money on the ring than his cars but for him to get her something so cheap and fake that she is EMBARRASSED to wear is sad. She would have just preferred a plain band. On top of that, she is scared to tell him because his feelings will get hurt and he will become angry at her. Red flags all over this story..
    Or another that got  her a yellow gold ring that was 13mm (I googled it, it’s over half an inch) for her tiny hands.. when she had wanted a dainty white gold ring. Or one that took her ring shopping and she chose what she liked, then he went and got her the exact opposite but later when her friend got engaged, he helped her friend’s fiance chose the ring she wanted.
    I think there is a difference between a brat who wanted a bigger diamond and a woman who’s fiance just outright, for whatever reason, did not listen at all. I get that for some couples, a  diamond engagement ring is silly in itself considering how not valuable diamond really, but that’s for a couple to decide together. I don’t think ANY decision should be made by one person and carried out without consideration whatsoever to how the other person will feel. 
    Luckily our own engagement story was a happy one. For years I had sent Won pictures of what I liked, solitaire, round, 6 prong, white gold. Can’t get any more simple than that. The actual diamond was up to him, I used to joke about it but when we started getting serious, I wasn’t going to ask for anything that would make him feel inferior nor superior. I just wanted him to be comfortable with what he would choose for me. So it made me really sad when he asked me how I felt if he got me what he could afford now then upgrade me later when he made more money. Sad, because #1. He still thought I was a gold digger after all these years and #2. I would NEVER EVER EVER EVER “upgrade” my engagement ring, to me it’s a symbol of how hard he worked to afford something for me, it is and will always be his “best” at this stamp in time. Even if in 5 years he can afford something 3 times as big and wanted to get it for me, I would happily take it, but I would never give up my current ring in exchange. 
    Long story short. I REALLY REALLY REALLY loved my ring. Everyone who saw it loved my ring. Even after some time, people would tell me it’s one of the few diamonds they’ve seen that they can’t get over how beautiful it is and compare all the diamonds they see to mine.Which makes me sooo happy and proud of my husband. I tell him all the time! I know he spent half a year through multiple jewelers searching for this one and he said he was just so beautiful compared to anything else he’d seen, including ones that had better specs. This one was just.. so sparkling. 
    Confession: Initially I had mixed feeling about the actual setting of the ring because it was more fancy than I had wanted, but after he told me how he specifically chose that one because he felt like I would want something fancy over something simple, I just dropped it. But he did offer if I wanted the more simple one I could go change it. Of course I did not have the heart to do it. And now, I love it more and more everyday. It seems Won knows me better than myself. 
    A lot of my girlfriends ask Won how he chose my ring because they were scared how to approach the subject with their boyfriend. And he advises them to just bring it up, and even if the guy acts like he isn’t listening, he is… or he SHOULD be. 
    We ended up going back to the same jeweler to design our wedding bands together. We just picked it up last week. LOVE it!! <3 <3 

June 5, 2013

  • 10 Day Writing Challenge. Day 5!

    Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.
    Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.
    Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.
    Day 4: Seven fears/ phobias.
    Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.
    Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.
    Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.
    Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.
    Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.
    Day 10: One person you can trust.
    6. Christina Aguilera: Hurt – It reminds me a lot of my relationship with my own father.
    5. Anything Bruno Mars really. Talking To The Moon.
    4. Bruno Mars: When I Was Your Man.
    3. Christina Perri: Thousand Years – For the longest time, I wanted to waltz to this song on our wedding day.
    2. Carrie Underwood: Temporary Home
    1. Martina McBride: Concrete Angel – I have a really soft spot of domestic and child abuse

  • 10 Day Writing Challenge. Day 4

    Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.
    Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.
    Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.
    Day 4: Seven fears/ phobias.
    Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.
    Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.
    Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.
    Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.
    Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.
    Day 10: One person you can trust.
    7. That one day Won realizes he has had enough of my shit. That he doesn’t want some stay at home wife. And why does he have to work so damn hard just so I can wake up at noon and shop everyday! I’m not as smart or driven as him. Why should he dedicate his life to my demands anymore?!?!
    6. That some homely looking bizzy falls in love with Won. And Won falls for her because she is the opposite of me: low maintenance, a guy’s girl, loves sports, and is as mathy as him. That is why his excuse for “she’s a dude!” does NOT fly with me. 
    5. That I will lose use of my hands and can’t be crafty anymore :(
    4. The dark. Seriously.
    3. That my family grows up and grows apart and one day it will be like we’re strangers and no one cares about each other’s lives anymore. I want our kids to grow up spending time with each other like I did with my cousins. I don’t want it to be like.. going to the wedding of some family member you don’t even know or like! Or worst, not even being invited! 
    2. That I become a famous person and people start hate blogs and anti-fan clubs about me. And every little thing I do or look like gets picked apart. 
    1. That I get fat after I get pregnant and never get skinny again. I mean, if you work out HELLA hard.. you body HAS to go back right? RIGHT?! 

  • 10 Day Writing Challenge. Days 3 – 8 because I’ve missed so much

    This is probably my first day using my computer since last week. 
    Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself.
    Day 2: Nine things you do everyday.
    Day 3: Eight things that annoy you.
    Day 4: Seven fears/ phobias.
    Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to.
    Day 6: Five things you can’t live without.
    Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget.
    Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using.
    Day 9: Two things you wish you could do.
    Day 10: One person you can trust.
    8. People who are slow to answer when I ask a question. I know people sometimes need time to think, but it drives me nuts.
    7. People I don’t know well hugging me. For the most part, I am REALLY uncomfortable being touched unless I want to be. I give awkward as hell half hugs so people aren’t like, “you bitch,” but honestly I’d rather just not. 
    6. Calculating the cost of how much every pays when eating out. With my friends, either I pay or someone pays all. I also don’t mind just splitting down the middle. But calculating how many pieces of appetizers someone ate and how many bites of my entree you ate is REALLY annoying.
    5. Wet counter tops in the bathroom. WIPE IT DOWN!
    4. Wet bathroom floors. Wet floors anywhere really. But at home, when I’m barefoot it’s SOOO annoying! I am a huge fan of bathroom floor mats.
    3. People who didn’t send back our wedding RSVPs even though we put a postage on the reply envelope.
    2. When obviously non sexy people pose as if they are sexy. I know, I shouldn’t be a hater as that doesn’t in any way affect my life but I can’t help it, I want to help them!
    1.When obviously pretty people know they’re pretty and post like a bazillion photos of their face every nano second. Again, with the haterade. What a loaded question! Hmph! Time to zen back into my nice and accepting of everyone mood….
    I’m too tired to do the rest of the days. I’ll do them another time! :)

May 30, 2013

  • 10 Day Writing Challenge. Day Two.

    Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself. 
    Day 2: Nine things you do everyday. 
    Day 3: Eight things that annoy you. 
    Day 4: Seven fears/phobias. 
    Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to. 
    Day 6: Five things you can’t live without. 
    Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget. 
    Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using. 
    Day 9: Two things you wish you could do. 
    Day 10: One person you can trust

    Asides from the obvious and obviously boring things like pee and brush my teeth. 

    1. I make Won cuddle me really snug even though 5 minutes later (when he’s fallen asleep) I’m so over it because I can’t breathe and I sprawl out starfish style. But if I wake up and he’s NOT cuddling me, I’m all, “hunnie.. cuddle meeeeeee!” And he does it half asleep half awake. Every time I’m sure he’s going to get mad but he never has yet.

    2. I call my mom. I try to keep the conversation interesting and joke around with her. But most of the time she’d in the middle of her drama or her dinner or a phone call so she’ll give me a minute or two then she goes back to her drama. I much prefer to talk to her in person as I talk really fast and I am really extra animated to make up for what words I don’t know how to say in Vietnamese, things that I cannot do on the phone :(  So I try to save my long gossips for when I see her in person. 

    3. Wait for my in laws to come home from work to say “hi” to them. Apparently it’s really important in Korean culture. Most of the time I’ll cook some snacks and dessert and hang out with them in the kitchen until they go to sleep. But when I’m in a bad mood, I literally say hi then head up stairs away from everyone.
    4. Regret the gym. When I don’t go I regret not going because if I did I would have been more energetic and feel better about my health and get skinnier. When I DO go, I regret going because my legs hurt, like they do right now :(  

    5. Play Candy Crush. Get mad. Vow to quit for good and never play again.

    6. Stay up until 3 or 4AM. Sometimes I don’t sleep at night at all. Won wakes up for work at 5AM and I am still up. He forces me to go to sleep then calls me at noon to make sure I haven’t died. For some reason I just can’t sleep in Seattle! ARGHH!! I haven’t taken naps during the day. And I started going to the gym to try and tire myself out. Doesn’t work.

    7. Take a pre-natal pill. Just in case… so our accident baby doesn’t have spina bifida. And for the record, please don’t tell our kid they were an accident. Thanks.

    8. Force myself to eat some form of fiber. Since I no longer live with my mommy who spoon feeds me at least 3 servings of fruits and veggies a day, I have to make sure I get it. A lot of Korean food isn’t in it’s natural form. A lot of the veggies are pickled or cooked in broths that don’t uphold their integrity. So I always try to have a bowl of lightly boiled veggies handy, or fruits, even fruits I hate, like bananas.  I hate bananas but I’ll eat one a day if I didn’t have anything else fibery.

    9. Save stories or dilemmas to write in xanga… but I never do because after a few days its  too much stuff to writ so I just don’t. Sad.

    I’m sure you’ve all heard of the Xangapocalypse. I think it would be nice that before I go, for good, that EVERYONE who reads my xanga (especially those of you who have been doing it silently all these years) say hi to me. And thank me for entertaining you for a good 5 minute once every few months. It’s  like my xanga funeral, don’t you have any last words for me??! Okay, don’t say stupid shit if it’s mean because I’ll just tell Won and he’ll put you on a list of people he’s going to punch in the face if he ever sees you in person. Anyhow, kind of fitting, I started this countdown just as xanga is starting their countdown… dun dun dun. 

  • 10 Day Writing Challenge. My First Ever!

    Day 1: Ten random facts about yourself. 
    Day 2: Nine things you do everyday. 
    Day 3: Eight things that annoy you. 
    Day 4: Seven fears/phobias. 
    Day 5: Six songs that you’re addicted to. 
    Day 6: Five things you can’t live without. 
    Day 7: Four memories you won’t forget. 
    Day 8: Three words you can’t go a day without using. 
    Day 9: Two things you wish you could do. 
    Day 10: One person you can trust


    1. I have never broken a bone before. And I’ve been to the hospital ONCE in my life for myself. Do NOT want to go back. Ever. 
    2. Although I’m great at smiling at the camera,  I do not take “selfies” to post online, I take them to send to Won. I send him tons of really ugly and silly ones all day. Like when I am showing off how many chins I can get or if I have a big belly that day and I tell  him how pregnant I am (I’m not).  I get maybe 1 nice one every 3 months. That one, I’ll post as my xanga profile pic! 
    3. I have memories of eating Moths back when I was in Vietnam as a child. We lived in the countryside without electricity so at night, we huddled around an oil lamp. And when a moth would come by, we’d catch it and roast it in the lamp. They’re quite buttery. I THINK I remember this, for some reason I think I do. Maybe it’s made up.
    4. I love eating things that you have to work to eat like crawfish, oysters, clams, mussels, crab, chicken with bone, fish with bone. I hate easy things like steak or boneless chicken! So I don’t like to eat out because it gets too messy with my hands. My favorite meals are just steamed seafood at home when I can get elbow deep in shells.
    5. I like to dance, like in Zumba, but my body is pretty stiff even though I have a good sense of rhythm. I just can’t bust a roll fast enough! And I get cramps when I get too shaky and rolly with my hips. LOL sad :(  
    6. I’m allergic to alcohol. I haven’t touched an alcoholic drink in 8 years. That was when I was in college and I found out. Everyone thought I got STDS from the frat houses. But no, I got fuckin’ allergic reaction from drinking and that shit manifested all over my face. WAS A NIGHTMARE because it was shamefully embarrassing, especially because I had never in my life kissed a boy at that point. I still have the scars on my chin to remind me :(
    7. I am also allergic to having anything glued on my eyelids, which sounds weird but considering I make a living on glueing things to people’s eyelids, it kind of sucks. I can’t wear false lashes for longer than an hour before it gets itchy then red and swollen the next day. Then the next week I can expect super dry eyelids and peeling skin. WTF right? I don’t care. I still wear false eyelashes when I go out. Thankfully, I don’t go out that much.
    8. I’m REALLY little, like under 5 feet 100 pounds little. So I don’t ever wear any jewelry or accessories to prevent anything from visually cutting my limbs or chest and will make me look stumpy. Even for my wedding I am opting for a zero jewelry look, as much as I love the bling. The only time it’s been a good thing is that my engagement ring looks like an effin’ rock. I also have a belt OR purse rule, one or the other. Not both or else I get lost in the accessories. 
    9. Yet, I like BIG effin’ hair. I have a shit ton of hair compared to a normal person but when I do my hair, I add 2 extra packs of extensions. So I have enough hair for like 4  peoples on my head. Even when I throw my hair up into a bun on top of my head, I have fake hair underneath my real hair, then I’ll wrap some more extensions over my real hair. I like it when my bun is bigger than my head! Lily Gallichi style!
    10. When Won and I first started dating I jokingly told him that he better marry me by the time I’m 25 or else I’ll dump him and find someone who will. I just turned 25 last month, I’m getting married next month. This guy makes my every wish come true, no matter how ridiculous or big or small. 
    Your turn!!