Month: January 2014

  • Pre Baby Body versus Post Baby Body.

    WARNING: SUPER VAIN AND SHALLOW POST SO DON’T READ IF YOU’RE GOING TO LEAVE A DUMB COMMENT!!*

    * Dumb comment is obviously subjective to my point of view and will be deleted. Muahahaahha. So much power on my own blog!

    So everyone is telling me how your body changes after pregnancy, how they used to be small like me.. 100 pounds small too but now they can’t wear clothes they used to wear and now wear “mommy” looking clothes. Fuck that! I hope these people were just delusional about how good of a body they had before and are now just looking back at this with rose colored glasses and they didn’t really have THAT banging of a body to start with…. I hope their words of warning are false.. I mean, there are plenty of hot young mamas out there still…

    I’m going to shoot someone if I’m don’t return to my hot little body afterwards. Hell. Someone shoot me, please.

    I’m no Victoria Secret model but I’ve always really secretly loved my body and thank goodness every day that I was blessed with what I have. I jokingly tell Won he has no idea how good he has it to be in bed with me every night. I’ve always WANTED to change in front of the mirror because I really like my body. I mean, I know I’m short short but even then I was really proportional torso & leg-wise, I had a body of a size 00 but the butts and boobs of a size 4. I didn’t come off that way before because I would never post a bikini pic, or wear tight clothes, or take selfies ever. But I’ve always secretly loved myself, I just didn’t care that other people saw it.

    Now, I die a little on the inside every day that I’m seeing my little waist get wider and wider everyday. The dip I used to have between my waist and my hip is becoming more and more of a straight line so I’m getting a more boy-ish figure. I hope that is just the baby taking up space and not my actual body changing. Pregnancy boobs are pretty cool though, I’ll be happy to keep those. Hahahaha. My face is a little rounder than before but I’ve always had a round face so it doesn’t bother me that much. But I watch my nose like a hawk everyday! I DO NOT NEED a bigger nose!! Luckily, my arms and legs haven’t gotten bigger .. hope they stay that way. My butt got flatter though :(   I hope it goes back.. need to eat more cheese, rice, and beans. Hahahahhaa so ridiculous!

    Things I wished I had done before getting pregnant:

    - Do professional boudoir photos

    - Wore more tight clothes that showed off my body

    - Wore more high heels

    - Took more pictures of myself

    Hahahah oh well.. hopefully it’s not too late and after the baby, I get this body back. At least after the first baby! I’m still young!! Only 25!! I have at least like 7 years left to be a hottie without it being inappropriate!! UGHHHH don’t take that away from meeeee!!

     

  • Baby Showers

    So I belong to all these Mommies group on FB.. and today I learned you’re only really supposed to have a baby shower for your first baby to get presents from your friends. And when you have the next babies, you aren’t supposed to have anything or just a “sprinkle” because you’re already supposed to have stuff from the first baby…

    Uh.. what the heck?! I always thought you had a baby shower to show all your girlfriend how cute you look at 7 months and for your friends to celebrate and play games with you.. I didn’t know the main purpose was to get gifts so you can raise your child. I mean, it’s nice  to receive gifts but now I feel like that’s kinda greedy and messed up to expect things from your friends! With the amount of money you spend on the party, can’t you just buy your own stuff? Plus if I were to have a baby shower, I would do it to welcome ALL my kids, not just the first.

    Anyhow, we’re not having a baby shower because we’re Vietnamese and all my girlfriends are in California anyways. We’re planning something really nice for when after the baby is born, that way everyone can meet Baby Choe in one trip up here. It will be baby baptism/Day Thang. Day Thang is a Vietnamese celebration of the baby’s One Month birthday, kind of like the Chinese red egg & ginger party. But I think the Chinese celebrate at 100 days.

    A lot of my family are already planning their family vacation for Seattle that weekend and a couple of my friends who wanted to come up for the Baby Shower, I told them to just wait for the Day Thang celebration instead so they can actually meet Baby Choe! Of course we’ll have a baby registry up for people who want to buy gifts but it’s not like we expect people to. Plus the stuff we’ll REALLY want are like stuff that costs in the hundreds and we know nobody is gonna gift that so we’re going to be just be thankful for all the diapers and toys & clothes we’ll probably receive. Things that probably will cost the same as the party.

    I’m trying to have our party at the Seattle Space Needle! Our wedding was already super Asian so we wanted to do an American style baby celebration. Space needle is perfect for all the people out of town plus I bet our Seattle friends haven’t even been up there yet. I know I’ll be too tired to decorate and plan for a nice party so I rather just do it somewhere fancy and let the venue and the view take care of the guests rather than me having to craft shit for everyone. Thoughtful, I know -____-

    It was funny yesterday Won’s mom gave me 3 beautiful serving platters she bought for the “Baby Shower,” which she thinks we’re having at home. She was really surprised I said we’re trying to have it at the Space Needle because it’s expensive. True.. But I can’t imagine having it at home either. My in-laws have NEVER had house guests before so I can’t imagine them hosting a party for 30 – 50 people. I think they  think we only have like 5 friends and they don’t know that my whole extended family are coming up along with my girlfriends from California. My in-laws are also OCD clean about everything and don’t like to entertain guests so I’m not sure who they were expecting to cook, set up, and clean the whole party up. I sure won’t be doing it at one month post birth! And I know they for sure won’t be happy doing it! Lol. Not to mention we’d have to buy all the backyard furniture like tables and chairs. It’ll be easier to just do it outside the home for this event. And we can do birthday parties here when I’m more physically able to handle parties.

  • A Regression :(

    I’ve been feeling pretty normal again aside from the lower back pain and the occasional nausea/vomiting. Yesterday I grabbed breakfast and headed to my salon. As I was doing some emails on my laptop, I suddenly felt my tummy ache. So I stopped to go to the bathroom but suddenly I felt REALLY dizzy for a second before I lost my sight. Everything was black and I thought to myself, “omg! I’m blind!” I reached out to feel to get a sense of where I was and instead I felt my head hit the shampoo sink. I must have been falling and didn’t realize it. I came to on the floor and felt super sweaty and lightheaded. I waited a few seconds until I felt more stable then I crawled for my cell phone. I called my husband at work and told him what happened and to come get me. Luckily he picked up because he normally doesn’t at work. Next, I texted my clients for the day and asked them to all reschedule, which they were all understanding of. I googled fainting while pregnant and while it’s not normal, it’s not uncommon at this stage as halfway through your blood pressure is at it’s lowest. I took off my shoes to help with circulation. Then I texted my neighboring stylists and told them what happened to just keep an eye on me while I waited for my husband. No one had seen me because the curtains for my salon was drawn.

    A stylist friend came into my salon and sat with me for about 15 minutes and Won showed up in record time. We work at least a 20 minutes drive from each other not to mention the time it takes to walk to the parking lots. We sat on the floor for another half an hour while we called out midwives to tell them what happened. They insisted I 1. go to my Regular physician or 2. go to the ER. They were adamant that I get seen the SAME DAY. So I called and couldn’t get in with my physician… but thinking back, if I knew what the ER was going to be like.. I probably would have BEGGED to be seen to save myself the time and money of going to the ER.

    So off to the ER we go, not even the closest one to work or the one closest to home, no we went to the farthest ER, which is the one we’re giving birth at because the Midwives insisted and Won was too worried to question anything at this point. So here we are in the ER. The staff looks tired and irritable, I’m sure with all the shit (literally) they deal with. But they were nice to us because 1. I was pregnant and 2. I had a nice engagement ring which they oohed and ahhed over. Even though I was a high priority for being pregnant, it was still over an hour before we got called in to get blood work, not even to see a doctor yet. The staff was nice enough to let us know we had time to go grab lunch somewhere before we would see the doctor.

    After lunch we waited another hour before we got called for our insurance information.  And then another hour before we got to go back into the ER treatment room. All that time we spent in the waiting room, the nurses told me to stay away from everyone else since a lot of people were there for the flu/fever. We also lots of drunk people, drug addicts (i’m sure), a hooker (or we thought she was one), and just generally really crazy people we were glad we weren’t sitting next to. I’ve actually never been to the ER in my life so this was all very new to me.

    The nurse led us to the ER and my eyes got wide, what a shit show… There were multiple people/beds in each of the rooms and all the doors were open so I could peek in. Then there were people laying on beds outside of rooms. And there was a nurses station with probably 10+ nurses are super busy. We got led to a single room in the back with only one bed. On our way into my room, we passed by a patient laying outside with like 5+ police officers surrounding him. Won got excited and kept trying to peek out at what was happening. Our nurse was super nice and I felt gave us a lot of privacy. So I changed and we waited another hour with an IV bag in place while we waited for a doctor. The doctor looked about Won’s age and very kind. We talked about all the possible reasons for me passing out blah blah blah. Then he went to check on my blood work and we waited another hour to do a heartbeat and ultrasound check on the baby.

    Then I REALLY had to go pee, which you’re not supposed to because you need a full bladder for an ultrasound but I been holding it for so long I REALLY needed to go. So a really nice nurse came in and let me go pee. She offered me a double gown to cover my back but I didn’t really care considering I still had my pants on but she told me there were weirdos out there. The ER seemed to have doubled in busyness since I was in that room. Now ALL the stretchers in the main area were FILLED with people either laying or just sitting, sometimes 2 – 3 people were sitting on a stretcher that was partitioned off by some plastic boards. And there was still tons of police around and Won said our doctor was running around like mad. It wasn’t until we got back to the quiet privacy of our own room that I realize I was the ONLY one with both a curtain AND a closed door. Not to mention, I was the only room with a door that was even closed and ALL our nurses made it a point to knock when they came in and close our door when they left. ALl the other rooms had 2 – 4 beds in them.

    I wondered if maybe because I’m pregnant that I’m considered high risk for catching whatever else everyone had so they put me in my own space. Won thinks it has more to do with the nurses just liked us better because we’re normal peoples. They did seem to have this .. us (nurses + Won & I) versus them (all the other sick people) mentality. The nurses would tell us about their kids and vacations, which I can not imagine them wanting to get personal with some of the other patients in there. It made me question are ALL ERS like this? Do really rich people go to the ER? Do they get better treatment because they look nicer and aren’t bitching and complaining and smoking all over the place? Even with the procedure of how things are done, human nature of the nurses HAVE to play into effect right? Whatever it was, I was very glad we got the nice treatment that we did.

    Finally we got our ultra sound and were discharged. Good, I was getting nauseous and hungry again. Just in time for dinner. Everything was fine and I felt everyone made a bigger fuss over it than necessary. But I know everyone just wanted a peace of mind. The doctor said I’m supposed to monitor myself and follow up with my midwives because blacking out for no reason can be an indictor sign of something much more serious. Anyhow, Won and I were pooped and glad to be back in our own beds. This morning I forced myself some breakfast and now back in bed because I feel nauseous..UGHHHH I’m regressing back into my pregnancy stage. DAMMNIT!!!

    The ER is really expensive and Won seems stressed about it. I know we have good insurance but we still are responsible for at least a small percentage of it. I’m guessing with all the testings and ultrasounds and stuff that our bill is gonna be like like $10k+ of which we’ll still have to pay at least a few hundred, if not thousand. See.. this is why next time I will fight harder to see my regular physician, if not, at least ANY regular physician in my hospital network which would only cost a few hundred for something so minor.

    Anyway, I had a nice-ish time at the ER with Won. I didn’t think it felt that long and as much work as he has to catch up on now, I thought it was kinda nice we got to spend a whole random day together. I’m sure Won doesn’t agree… Hahahahaha. He said he rather spend our day together doing something for less expensive than an ER and hospital food.

    PS. I get REALLY annoyed everyone keeps lecturing me about eating and drinking more and taking it easy. I AM taking it easy!!! You’d think I’d lost two legs and a limb since I’ve been pregnant. Won totally babies me and never asks anything of me and I’m not exactly the least lazy person in the world. Not to mention I DO eat and drink just fine. More-so than I did before I was pregnant but you really can’t expect me.. a 4’11″  100 lbs person to just start eating as much as a “normal” person. Yes, I eat less than everyone else but I ALWAYS have my entire life. I usually eat about 1/3 of what everyone else eat.. now I eat about 1/2. I can’t just FORCE FEED myself!! And I feel that unless you cook for me directly or give me money to eat out, then you don’t get to lecture me about anything. I know everyone means well but I get really annoyed. Like are people implying I don’t take care of myself and WANT something bad to happen to me or the baby? Or that I’m too dumb to know that I need to eat and drink and not lift heavy things. Are all these random never-been-pregnant or had-good-pregnancies people suddenly smarter and an expert on MY body, the one I’ve had for 26 years now?! If an ER doctor can’t pin point what is wrong with me and explain WHY I passed out, what makes everyone else think they’re qualified to? For your information, I DID eat that morning! THe doctor actually never even said ANYTHING about me eating more. Hmph!!

  • Because my Husband Said So

    Won keeps telling me to write a new post because my last post is so depressing. Haha. So what’s new?

    1. I spent an awesome 2 weeks in California where my mom cooked hot meals for me every single meal and I finally started eating like how a person does for 2 peoples. I’ve gained back my pre-morning sickness weight and SLOWLY I’m starting to see more weight gain. So yay!

    2. The nausea and throwing up is generally gone. I still have relapse days where I feel like shit but for the most part I am able to work and hang out again.

    3. My new years resolution is to stop feeling so irritable by the people around me, even when they are irritating me. And so far I think it’s working :)  I don’t want my baby to feel my irritability and be an irritable baby in turn. I hope everyone notices my new CHILLAX and happy attitude. Hehe

    4. Pinky seems to REALLY like me now!! Okay, not when Won’s around because that’s still her BFF#1ForeverInHerHeart guy but she’s nicer to me now and sometimes will follow me even when Won is around.

    So what’s new with you all? All 2 of you guys who still write on xanga :)