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  • Update on My Life.

    My sad sad life. Okay, I’m being melodramatic. It’s not sad, it’s my every dream, to be a housewife without having to cook or clean unless I want to. I mostly just watch Housewives series now, except we’re not rich like that nor I am dramatic like that so I can’t really relate. But I just like having the tv on ALL THE TIME cuz the quiet is lonely.

    I ended up not getting a job in Seattle because I travel back to SF sooo much for weeks at a time. I work when I am in SF at least. I am thinking of starting up a private beauty concierge service in Seattle so I can work without committing to a schedule. I’ll service really busy working moms, and busy executives, and really vain people who don’t want to be seen going to a salon to reveal their best beauty secrets. 
    With the wedding coming up, Won wants me to not focus on work but more on the wedding.Which is fun but I can’t help but feel so guilty because everyday (middle of night really) I am charging his credit card a couple of hundreds of dollars worth of supplies yet I am not contributing to our bank account in any way. All our money is tied up in the wedding so it’s not like we have the extra money for me to invest in new supplies and contracts and insurance for my new business idea. 

    I go through very short but very real bouts of depression because I feel useless and guilty. Guilty for spending money without making any. And guilty for leaving my mom by herself. It never really occurred to me before how big and lonely my mom’s house is until I was there last week by myself for a day and I wanted to cry. So I came back to Seattle and unleashed the dragon and Won was like wtf is wrong with you? He kept asking if I’m pregnant cuz I am super emotional and tired and don’t want to be touched cuz I’m sore. Conclusion: We don’t know. We don’t want to know because I need to live in this delusion that I am not going to get too fat that I cannot fit into my wedding dress which was altered down like a glove for me. 

    But most of the time I’m happy. Won signed me up for the gym, and cake decorating class, and bead making class and whatever the hell else I promise I want to do. I went to the gym a total of 3  times in the last month. I love taking Zumba but people at the gym at bitches. ESPECIALLY the bitches who work at the front desk. I don’t know why they are such douchebags. 1. They’re not good looking. 2. They’re obviously not rich because they’re working the front desk of a stupid gym. 3. They’re not that buff, my husband can come in and kick anybody’s ass. So like, WTF is their deal?! They treat me like I am so bothersome asking them questions that are not posted online. Like I am so annoying, even though they aren’t doing anything else at the moment! And I always see them power trip and act like douchebags to other gym members too. And the girls are not very nice here. I am super smiley and everyone has bitch face on. Maybe I’m not serious enough about the gym :( *sigh* I think we are going to cancel my membership, NOT BECAUSE I NEVER GO, but because I don’t like the peoplet here. 

    How to end this on a good note: Pictures of the wedding crafts I’ve been doing..
     
    Wedding shoes came in the mail! I bought 3 other pairs before this but returned them all before I found this one. I wish I knew how to better capture light and crystal but in person this mother efffer lights up like a Christmas tree in your wildest dreams. I am sooo pleasantly surprised at the quality of the rhinestone considering how cheap these were! I really hope our wedding day photographers  & videgraphers can capture the beautiful light from these! They come in my size and are 6inches!! even thought they’re advertised at 5 3/4, which originally turned me off from them cuz I was adamant my wedding shoes HAD to be 6+ inches. 

    Here is a comparison picture with one of my favorite 6 inch shoe that I’ve had and loved since forever. 

    I’m spray painting chandeliers gold because our wedding colors are pink and gold. So I got these white chandelier and went to town with gold spray paint. I also did not like the original chandelier crystals beads that came with them so I ordered better quality crystals to hand on these. YAY! This was a sample set of 5. I just ordered an additional 25. Plus 300+ pink candles. And now I need to go buy more spray paint. and YAY! Let’s light up this mther effer and dazzle in gold!

    I also thought the votives candle holders were too plain so I bought gold glass paint and am now taking on the task of hand dipping 300+ candle holders.FML. The first 20 were fun and now I’m like FML people better appreciate these!! Need to buy more paint. 

    It’s surprising how little cupcake holders are.. Can you imagine these itty bitty little things are going to hold 200+ cucpcakes when they’re done? 

    Fabric swatches for the guys…

    And flower shopping at the the Flower Mart to get an idea on pricing so that ALL our wedding guests can have a fresh flower on their plate. 
    Won’s double wedding band that we just picked up. We’re going to have them sand down the smoothness for an rougher more textured look. And mine is still not done yet :(

    And here is me. Looking how I feel.. 23 years ago. Hmph! 

  • More Oysters

    When I told my mum about the oyster trip, she insisted I make some super yummy oyster porridge. 

     
    I’ve never even made porridge before. My mom says you’re supposed to put 1 cup of uncooked rice and then tons of water. I was lazy so I scooped a bowl of cooked rice in the rice cooker. And kept adding water when it got thicker. I think you’re constantly supposed to stir, which I did not know because the rice at the bottom of the pot burned and stuck to the pot. Can’t scrub it off. 
    R.I.P. little  pot :(
    Also, I was supposed to chop up uncooked oysters but I had forgotten so all I had to work with were the left over baked oysters. Too bad because the best part is the oyster juice when it cooks. Oh well! Next time!
    Some garlic and shallot. Note: add oil to the pot so it doesn’t burn. Luckily, there was not a lot so I was able to scrape the bottom of this pot. Hahahahaha (not). 
    Add the chopped oysters to the shallot pot and some more “oyster sauce” because.. it’s oyster porridge!! I don’t know, I made that up. I really had no idea what I was doing. Then add the oyster pot to the porridge. Porridge is not a fun dish, it’s very bland. So I added some fish sauce because I’m Vietnamese and that is what we do.

    I ended up making some more oyster stir fry and adding it to the porridge because the porridge was STILL bland. I never knew this but Koreans eat kim chee with their porridge. I thought it was weird but considering how bland my porridge was, it was not a bad idea. Haha. 

    Good thing Won eats EVERYTHING! Hahaaha
    In other news, Won signed me up for a gym. I went for the first time yesterday to go swimming. It was so embarrassing, I came in and swiped my card. 
    Then walked across the whole gym to the dressing room. . I’m trying to act like I go to the gym all the time and that the big machines and weights in there do not scare me. And that it’s normal that I am wearing a pretty dress and some flip flops while everyone else is in real gym clothes. FML. Then the front desk staff chases me down telling me I needed a picture taken since it’s my first time
    So I walked back across the gym to the front desk to take a horribly ugly picture I was not prepared for.
    Then I walked back across to the dressing room to realize the lock Won gave me does not fit, luckily he had bought me a new pad lock in case this happened. 
    So I had to walk back out across the gym AGAIN to the front desk for scissor to cut open the package. 
    Then I walked back across to the locker room to realize I threw away the combo paper at the front desk.
    So I had to walk back to the front desk. Only for the staff to tell me that the combo paper is actually on the back of the lock. FML. 
    So I walked back to the dressing room to change and get in the pool -___- 

    As if I am not awkward enough!!  So much for pretending I am a regular. 

    So what.. is going on with everyone else’s life? We’re going to the Cinco De Mayo festival in Portland tomorrow! Exciting!

  • Hama Hama Oyster Rama!!

    2 years ago Won bought us a Groupon for oyster picking from the sea!! Of course with all sea creature picking you have to go during the hours of low tide during the times of year where the water temperature is just right so your food does not poison you. Long story short, we never timed it right to go. Until…

    Hama Hama Oyster Rama 2013!! Oyster picking, food, music, relay races, art, and FUN!! 

    Hama Hama! Don’t bother getting dressed cute in Washington because it’s always so FREEZING COLD!
    I’m walking on oysters. Oh! oh! And don’t it feel good!

    ALL MINE!!!
    So many little creatures to play with! From slimey little fishes to star fishes to hermit crabs and big crabs and a who knows what else lives in these waters!

    Hard at work picking the biggest oysters we could find!
     
    Good thing we had rain boots! We could walk in the puddles. Except she got a hole in her boot! And everyone else got their socks wet from wearing tennis shoes :(

    We had the biggest and heaviest bucket! Everyone complimented us on our haul! I helped!

    Photo op is over, Won Choe carries the bucket home. Hahahahahaha.
    We could have also digged for clams. But we skipped out on that experience because there was nothing special about the clams and it was $5/lb! Hello, they are only $3.99/lb at the Asian market and $2.89 at Winco. We DID buy some fresh steamed clams at the picnic though :)
    Oysters on the other hand were cheap at $5/dozen! Our goal was 6 dozen (as it was 2 dz/person) but we were tired and hungry at 4 dozens so we stopped. Plus the tide was coming up and the wind was getting really strong.
    Washing our oysters to be packed to be taken home. Free tip: No matter how fabulous your hair is, tie it up for outdoor activities! Lest you risk looking like crazy hair in strong wind!
     
    I specifically also picked a few of the smallest oysters I could find to eat raw!! YUUUMMMM!!

    At home for a nice wash before we baked them! After scrubbing them thoroughly, I found tons of little shrimps left floating in the sink. Ha! 

    I wasn’t kidding when I said we picked the biggest ones we could find!!

    For some reason I thought watermelon would go well with them. And it did!!

    The oysters were as big as my chubby little hand (no thanks to Won’s bad camera angle skills)! But as fun as it was to pick and bake the biggest ones (no it was not, these took almost an hour to cook!) I prefer the smaller ones. Next time I will not be so greedy :(
    And THAT is how I spent my weekend! Next up.. Digging for razor clams!!!! 

  • Deep Dish Pizza And Wedding Planning

    What’s a day in a life of a Seattle suburban housewife you ask me?


    I took Pinky for a jog. But she kept stopping to pee and smell things so we didn’t get very far. That and because I was getting tired. Hahahaha. But let’s blame it all on Pinky.


    Then I drove up to Seattle where Won works in some big corporation. I watched as business people flocked in after lunch. I brought a salad and Won took me to Chinatown for some tapioca and roast duck. We had a nice picnic in Chinatown. 
    Then I went shopping for a few hours then came home and made dinner! I wanted to use the leftover ingredients I had from all the other dishes.
    Marinating and baking chicken breasts.

    More tiny ingredients! and my shredded chicken! 
    Then I used a Vietnamese coffee can (go Vietnam!) to cut little pizza rounds from my leftover quesadilla.

    I put the quesadilla into muffin pan slots to make my deep dish pizza crust.

    Tomato paste!! And Cheese! For pizza pizza!

    Add the onions,bell peppers, mushroom, chicken, cheese, and parsley! Into the oven we go!

    Out of the oven! And 2 missing already! Yummm!! Melty cheesey mushroom chicken goodness!
    Ignore my freaky double jointed thumb. I’m extra opposable!

    A platter full for the family. All gone by this morning.

    Because somebody eats like this…. -_____-
    My mom said Won will eat us to the poor house!! 
     Now onto Wedding Details!! 


    I found a girl version of my wedding band. Except my bands are much smaller and delicate and will be made to fit my engagement ring perfectly. Very excited!


    I LOVE this bouquet accessory! So I’ve been on the hunt for something for my own bouquet. I found something in my wedding colors.. but I want something more crystal-ly! ;)

    Picking out our wedding outfits for our Pae Baek. I love the company we went with, they have so many more options than just the typical red and blue outfits (that we wore for our engagement shoot) that EVERYONE has. These outfits are much more expensive and reserved for royalty! We had 6 sets to choose from, from princess to knights to queen to empress. OF COURSE we went for the empress outfits. Hahahahaha. It’s okay if you don’t know what I’m talking about, Won has not a clue either. 
    Some cake stands I picked up for our cupcake/wedding caketable. Chandelier EVERYTHING!! Yay!

    And here is Pinky… totally not understanding the concept of personal space -____- 
    You can see I was blogging in the background. 

    These were the wedding shoes I wanted but they didn’t have my size left. So I just ordered 2 other pairs. Hoping they come and I like them. Will update you all later :D

  • More Pictures.. of FOOD!

    Since I’ve officially become a housewife, I try to be a good one by cooking!! Every recipe is my first time because I’ve never cooked prior to living with Won! 

    I made Quesadilla! Wish I took some pictures of the process because it was surprisingly really yummy. Portabello mushroom with spinach sauteed with steak! Inside a cheesy quesadilla!! <3 <3 

    Chicken wings in Char Siu sauce and honey. My sister in law taught me how to make this back when I used to bum around at my brother’s house. With boiled broccoli! So happy I did not over cook it, my first time too!
    Last night I was craving some clam boil,  and remembered how yummy the crawfish etouffee I had in San Francisco last week was. So.. I decided to make it cajun night!!

    I normally do not like corn but it is one of my favorite ingredients in cajun food. The sweetness is so yummy in the spicy hot dish!

    LOTS of little ingredients. Anyone want half an onion, half a jalapeno, half a bell pepper, half a parsley, half a celery, half a garlic? The leftover ingredients is so annoying! BTW, I cried the WHOLE time. Sad me!! I hate onion.
     
    Simmer with shrimp shell for 1 hour to make stock. It’s a lot of work for what it’s worth, I’ll tell you that much. BUYING cajun food from the restaurant is well worth the money for your time. That is the ingredients being strained to get the stock.

    That’s the pot of stock in the back. Voila!! And in front is the etoufee! Etoufee is flour mixed in lard (I used butter) and the 1000000x little ingredients and your previously made stock. It’s kinda like a seafood gravy.

    Pretty fresh flowers from Jenny’s mom’s garden. Fresh flowers help brighten up the kitchen and not make me feel like I am slaving away. And Pinky, who follows me every single step of the way, waiting for me to drip or drop a morsel for her to help “clean up” with her tongue. 
    Last ingredients are shrimp and tobasco sauce for a kick!

    Butter, the main ingredient in Cajun. At least I’m not using LARD!!! 
    Our crawfish and clam and sausage boil with butter, garlic, orange juice, and Zatarains!! 

    Over boxed mashed potatoes! I would have made it from scratch with real potatoes and all but Won INSISTED on how much he loves boxed potatoes. 
     
    All plated!! YUMMY!!!! 
    And to make you drool some more… Jenny came up to visit her family and they took me to casino buffet for King Crab night (for free)!! AHHHHHHHHHHH YUMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was my first time going to a casino. I lost $10 gambling :( Nevermind it was Jenny’s $10 I lost. At least $5 was given to us for free from the casino. Do you know for $10 I could bought a ticket to go oyster farming ALL DAY at the Oyster festival. Yet here I threw away $10 by pressing a button for 2 minutes. I hate gambling. 

    I ate soooo much I spent the rest of the evening concentrating on not throwing up.

    Never before seen, Won’s custom wedding band!!! Very simple, very unique! This is the picture we got back from the CAD, which I am assuming is some computer program that uses your specification to design the mold for the ring so they can make it! It’s a ring jacket to match MY wedding band. What is a ring jacket you ask? Imagine two rings fused together but with a space in between for my engagement ring, like a.. jacket!! Get it?! For my ring, we ordered two diamond bands and going to have them bridged together around my engagement ring! And so I wanted Won’s to reflect the double band too, that is how we came up with his design. VERY excited to see it all come together! And more excited to actually get to wear it!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
    And here is an obnoxious kiss to end the post!   

  • Pictures!!

    So I spent all of last night and most of today crying and being angry and sad and imagining all the conversations I am going to have. During my car ride home from work, I remembered the speech game we had during my bachelorette where each girl went around saying their name, how they knew me, and one sentence dedicated to me. When it was MY turn, I gave some super nervous and generic speech and everyone applauded. Ha! So I was driving home remembering that, then wished I had in turn dedicated one sentence to each one of the girls. And I got so teary thinking about all the good memories and how some of them literally dropped everything and rushed to my side in the past.  Then suddenly all the negative feelings I had completely vanished. I feel so happy and normal again. 

    And everyone must have loved the bach party because my phone is blowing up with pictures and girlfriends asking to treat me out to a nice dinner before I left again. 

    In happy thoughts, here are the pictures from my birthday and bachelorette!

    My favorite food in the world, crawfish!! My brother ordered me 15 lbs shipped overnight from Louisianna! We also had geo duck sashimi that was fresh caught by my cousin. And garlic noodles and taro cake! AsianInvasion!
    The next day:
    Getting ready early in the morning so I can go work and do makeup for a pageant before heading to my bachelorette party. Total hustler, because we’re poor now after paying off our wedding. 
    And a picture of me at the end of the night when I wiped off half of my face that I sent to Won. Hahahaha  
     
    Our tea party theme was sun dress, open for interpretation by the girls of course. 

    I have super cute friends!! Who have such nice table manners, unlike me! Walking around shoving food in my mouth.
     
    Super cute tea party at Rose Tea Lounge, which doubles as a florist shop!

    Afternoon sandwiches and summer salad and other fancy cheese stuff anybody? 

    The X is for xanga girls!!! Why am I the only one???!

    Welcome to the Vanity Pham sweat shop!! Making my outfit for the night in our hotel room. Hahahaha! 

    We fancy! even our sweatshop tools are designer! 

    OF COURSE I am going to be doing everybody’s hair & makeup before the party. I promised myself I would resist the urge on my wedding day. Promise I will not touch anybody!!!

    Holy shit, don’t cut my hair by mistake! 

    Never seen a cuter bachelorette outfit huh? Admit it! My sweatshop workers are good! 

    Awww, I look like a shy little angel!! Because THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM!! duh!!

    Learning to dance from my one black friend!! 


    I thinks I gots its!!! 

    Random collages of my pretty friends that I stole from their instagram. Some are sweet and some will cut you (that bottom right one hahaha). Sadly, none of them are single  for the taking. 

    This picture is a little bad ass, which I totally am not. But generations from now they will think I was!

    Of the 20 people who confirmed for dim sum the next day, this many made it out.

    Happiness for EVERYBODY!! Hope I cheered up somebody in a bad mood! <3
    The GOOD quality photos are from my xanga friend and talented photographer: www.FernLee.com
    The hazy instagram type photos are from my xanga friend and instagram pro: Christina Chen
    The rest of the random ass ones with no real quality are from the rest of my high quality friends who don’t know how to use a camera properly!  <3

  • Stress Causes Illness

    This past weekend was both my birthday and my bachelorette party. I had a good time for the most part and loved seeing my friends who I have not seen in a long time. 

    But, if I had to go back and do it again, I would not. I won’t go into details about all that happened but in the end, my feelings were definitely hurt. And I know many more will too once I reach out to everyone. 
    The aftermath of the events is causing me a lot of emotional stress. For the first time in my life I want to tell people exactly what is on my mind. Odd because in the past, I have ALWAYS taken the high road, cut my losses, and avoided any sort of confrontation. Surprisingly, Won is calm and completely supporting me. He is going to eat the cost so I am free to express myself to everyone, something I have never ever done with anyone (except him and my mom.) But I know if I do not do it, the emotional stress is going to consume me. 
    It is going to be completely new territory for me, telling people how I feel. Wish me luck. 
    Back up plan: chicken out and Won will still eat the cost and let me cut my losses without confrontation. 
    I thought I would forever love San Francisco and my friends and familiar scenes, but I am starting to feel like this place carries a negative energy for me. Maybe I’ve outgrown the streets and the people here. I can not wait for Won to come pick me up this weekend and take me back to my new home in Washington. 

  • Life In Seattle

    As told from my Iphone!!

    1. Won made that last comment because he knows I am actually not in Seattle. I made a big show about moving out there with literally a carload of luaggage, rearranged all the furniture in his life, bummed around for ONE month then went back to San Francisco where I am have been for the last month. Hahahaa Won says I am not allowed to leave for more than 3 days in the future. Prisoner, I tell you!!!

    2. How did I get home? We flew up Seattle native and dearly loved xangan turned one of my most awesome friend, Jenny. Flew her in red eye, woke her up early, then subjected her to a 16 hour non stop drive with me! We are so much closer now. Because we freaking told ghost stories after the sun went down while driving through the forest, even though we made a rule not to talk about scary things after dark!!!

    3. Why am I back in San Francisco? I got a job at a dental ofice, yay me! But according to the Washington State Department of Health, I have to wait for my background check and other clearances to go through before I can legally touch peoples germs. And because I am from California, it takes twice as long, so I came back to California where I am working until I can work in Washington! Quite a hustler, yes.

    4. I spent many hours in the kitchen out of boredom. It takes almost half a day to go grocery shopping, prepare to cook, actually cook,watch people eat, and then clean up. Oddly enough, I don’t mind. What people say is true, cooking skills just automatically kick in once you’re married.


     
    5. His precious dog Pinky is a VERY well behaved dog, that is until Won isn’t around.When Won is there, Pinky would never dream of eating without permission, always loves to be petted, and is just generally adorable. But one day Won was at work and I gave Pinky a tiny piece of mango that I was cutting up, she ended up STEALING the whole seed and would NOT let go no matter how much I fought with her. We were deadlocked in a heated battle for a mango seed. I was scared she would choke on it but she wouldn’t let go. I had to wiggle my fingers in her mouth and pry her little jaw open to get the mango seed. She drooled a puddle on me in the mean time. And whenever I touch her she has this low growl like I am annoying her. Can you believe that little booger? ANNOYED that I am taking time out of my day to pet her?!! And when Won is around she is all cute playing fetch with me making Won think she is so playful and cute. But when it’s just me and I throw her toys around, she just looks at me and walks away ignoring me! 

    At first I tried to make her a travel companion, a la Paris Hilton. She acted all happy to be getting her leash and going with me. I put her on the passenger seat ready to drive off. I turn on the engine and she starts rattling her bones. -____-   I slowly start to drive and she climbs into my lap, WHILE I’M DRIVING! I’m like wtf!! Get back to your seat!! But noooo! And so to hide her until we got back home, I had to hold her head down so no one would see her. Most stressful 5 minute drive. Ever. Yet when she gets driven with anyone else, she is perfectly behaved. UghhHHHHhh!!! 
    6. Seattle is really cold and gloomy. No way to dress cute. No desire to go outside.
    7. Going to sleep with yobo at night is nice. Even though I stay up a couple of hours later to read and watch tv, it’s nice to have his 1000 pounds arm wrapped around me. Sometimes  I push him away when his arm gets too heavy, but it’s sweet how even when he is deeply asleep he instinctively reaches over for me.  That or he is just pretending to sleep all night ;)
    8. I always thought I was really independent, but when I am in Seattle with literally no friends, I found out I am really NOT independent. Here in San Francisco I ALWAYS had friends to go shop with, to do crafts with, even run errands with. In Seattle I only have Won. So I wait until the weekend and drag him to all the wedding shows, the convention centers, the this and that. Things he has ZERO interest in, except to go and make me happy. 
    9. That’s all. Come visit the cold North West!! And take me out to eat :D  

  • What is There to Write About??

    I tried to read other people’s blog to leech great ideas off from. But no bueno. 

    What can I write about? Oh I know,Wedding Invitations!! 
    1. WHY do people who haven’t talked to you in YEARS, because you never hang out or even have each others’ numbers, run into you at the farmers market by total coincidence tell you that you NEED to invite them to your wedding. Why do they even care. I mean, obviously they didn’t care about you over the years to keep in touch? So why suddenly care to be invited to some lame wedding of some people too lame to keep in touch with?
    2. I wish people would stop asking the exact date of the wedding. It’s so uncomfortable because now it’s like they know WHEN to show up, when I didn’t intend to invite them. I usually answer with a casual, “summer time.” *smile smile change the effin’  subject* 
    3. Besides from my xanga, I really do not like talking wedding details to people except people who have to do shit for me for the wedding (cue in amazing friends who I will forever be in debt to) I don’t want it to come off as if I am showing off to them and then insult them by not inviting them. That or when most people ask, it seems so fake. I mean really, do you REALLY care what my wedding colors or theme is? Probably not. But when people fakely ask, I have to fakely answer -___-
    4. For the RSVP card, I specifically and politely put a fixed number of seats we reserved for them. Basically our rule of thumb was no kids and no boy-girl friends. We tried to cap at 240 guests. We’re probably close to 300 right now -____-   But people CALLED and asked why their family of 4 only got 2 reserved seat. BECAUSE! Nobody wants your awkward pre-teen pimply faced sons there. NO ONE, not even them, except you.
    5. As much as I LOVE my engagement ring, I don’t like it when other people love it, ESPECIALLY when they love it and compare it to their own ring, IN FRONT of their husbands. Gaaaaah so. effin. awkward. 
    Doesn’t matter. I’m just happy everyone is happy for me :D  
    Any good ideas to write about? Whatever happened to the question a day xanga thing? Does that still exist? 

  • Lucky??

    Van: You are in a happier mood than me.
    Won: Cause I gotta cheer you up.
    Van: Are you REALLY in a good mood? Or are you just pretending for me? Because sometimes I pretend for you.
    Won: I know you just pretend for me sometimes.


    Hahahahahha. So sweet and sad!
     
    Won and I have been running into SOOOO many bumps in the road lately. Not with each other, but with our families, our jobs, our everything!! But at the same time I can’t believe how freaking lucky we are for each other. I was exactly at the right place at the right time to save Won. And he the same for me. So he’s been calling me his lucky charm! 

    The funny thing is all my life I’ve always thought I was really an unlucky charm. I mean, I’ve always been a fortunate person myself but anyone I’ve ever been close to has always faced some sort of bad luck while I’m around. I think back tp the people I dated and they lost their jobs, or didn’t get the internships they wanted, or failed out of school, or something really bad. Then those freaking people’s luck super turned around after I left them. And they got better jobs, better internships, graduated school, etc… 

    When Won and I first started dating, he freaking got laid off. I NEVER told him this but the whole time I was thinking.. “oh fuck, it’s my fault AGAIN!” Then on top of that, he STAYED unemployed for months!  I was like.. “shit shit shit this is all my fault. I bet if we broke up he will get a good job again.” 

    But we’re still together. I guess we’ll just be unlucky together forever. 

    Hahahahahahah Won doesn’t know this about me. So maybe that is why he is still with me. Hahahahah