Jenny from Seattle and Christina from Taiwan came to visit! So I took them out to a night club with my cousins and her almost in-laws since it was her  birthday (Last one before she gets married in 2 weeks!)

Christina and Jenny done getting ready and just taking pictures of themselves while they wait for me -____-. So much fun! Jenny let me do her makeup! Can’t wait until we slowly start transforming her into ONE OF US! hahahahaha

Something doesn’t feel right… NOT ENOUGH GLITTER!!

The start of the night! With my cousin, the birthday girl in pink!!

The three sisters and myself. Love them! They are the big and little sisters I’ve always wanted <3

Xanga! Xanga!

With the OJs. “Other Jenny” and “Original Jenny” Hahahahha. Not confusing at all..

Before we they start getting drunk and turning into hot messes… Hahaha.

I love this picture cuz Christina is so sexy and sultry!

So blurry but love it! So much fun just dancing away with my boy-fort girlfriends. Hahaha. At one point my cousin managed to take me down on top of her while trying to keep me away from the boys… Omg. Do NOT trust yourself with drunks peoples!! Too rough for me even though she was trying to protect me ended up hurting me! Haha.

Lol we’re invading in on the soon-to-be-wed couple’s lovey dovey time!

 
Too tired to be on the dance floor. But not too tired to keep dancing. Hehe

I had a FANTASTIC weekend! Some other highlights:
- I was photo shooted by some photographer friends
- Went bargain home decorations shopping with the girls! Found some GREAT stuff!! Now we have plans to do a trip across America in a U-Haul hitting up every Home Goods and Ross we can possibly get to. Hahahaha.
- Worked weddings and photo shoots <3
- Had dinner at my favorite mom & pop restaurant
- Had SO MUCH FUN going out with my cousins and friends. Wall to wall bottle service!
- Miss San Francisco 2011 Pageant, during which my girl won the title! And I also ended up doing makeup for the reining Miss San Francisco 2010 queen too.
- Met up with some fantastic new clients! Very excited to work with them for their 2011 wedding

It’s been sooooo much fun since my cousin has moved within 5 minutes of me. We eat we shop we sleep, she practically lives here. Hahahaha.

Hope everyone has a GREAT week!

I hate that my boyfriend lives a flight away. Most of the days I get along fine because I am so busy as is he and I treasure the weekends we do get together. But on days like today I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY hate that he can’t just swing by and help me with men stuff.

I hate that there are no reliable men nearby. my brothers are either wussies or too busy for me.

And I don’t have guy friends I can really ask for favors.

And I hate that we have no hammers in the house. WTF. Who doesn’t have a hammer in their house? Whoever took my dad’s hammer in the first place should give it back and buy their own damn hammer!

I hate being a stupid little girl asking for help in a stupid big store. And then not really understanding what the staff said about lighting installments and converters and light wattage. And I hate standing there for half an hour trying to figure out which damn light bulb to buy.

I really really really really hate tonight. I try but I failed. I want to cry and beat someone up.

Edit:

Okay so what happened… I’ve been soooo busy lately with FULL TIME hours at school, running my business, being in charge at church, and making my family and health a priority. And the thing is the more my business appointment calendar is filling up, the more clients are pushing to get their appointments in! Ahh!! So I’ve been having to do my client appointments later and later in the day. And it’s a makeup studio so we don’t have the so important advantage of DAYLIGHT! And I’m getting so sick of doing client’s makeup in the cheap yellow flourescent lights that comes with the studio so I was determined to go buy really bright studio lights.

A one hour trip to Home Depot trying to learn as much as I can about lights, electricity and light bulbs landed me sitting and crying for 2 hours trying to figure out how to assemble the damn thing. I felt like I tried EVERY WRONG POSSIBLE way before I FINALLY put it together correctly. I kept taking it part and putting it back together again and again and again. At one point I want to throw it in the garbage can and cry because I was 100% sure Home Depot sold me faulty shit. But I persisted. Then I used a power drill for the very very very first time to drill it to the wall. Sooo scary! But final results…
 


I felt super accomplished for  a whole 10 minutes until my brother called me out for not using anchors (I didnt even know WTF they were or why there were a bunch of plastic pieces in the bags with the screws) and for using the wrong light bulbs. It’s like getting punched in the stomach. Especially considering my brothers ARE FUCKING IRRITATING because they would never in a million years help me with this stuff no matter how many times I ask again and again. But yet so eager and quick to criticsized.

Then there’s Mr. Boyfriend who is like a thousand miles away. And all he does is laugh. He think it’s really cute. I don’t. Im beyond frustrated, I need help, not to be made to feel like I can’t do shit and it’s cute that I even try. Or he tells me to just wait until he’s here. I don’t want to wait weeks and weeks on end. I can’t keep meeting with clients weeks and weeks on end in the dark. And as if shit can’t get worst, now he’s mad at me for being mad at him for laughing at me. He thinks I treat him like a punching bag and he doesn’t put up with it. But I feel like a lot of times he doesn’t understand my frustrations. He doesn’t take me seriously. And I hate it because I already feel helpless and here my supposed-to-be knight in shining amour not only cannot help me but then makes me feel like shit. So yea, instead of making me feel better he pisses me off more and more. So yea, I take it out on him. I guess sometimes the person we push away the most is the person we need the most. I wish he had more tolerance for me. And at least ACT like he understands my feelings instead of just brushing them off.

WTF. Im just SUPER SUPER SUPER pissed and annoyed right now. And I used up all my energy already. I don’t have any more strength to re do it now

I feel like shit. I hate tonight. AND there’s a MESS of empty boxes and plastic bags in the living room

It’s in.. um.. a whole month but I am very excited! For the first time in almost 10 years I am going to have a gigantic dinner for all my family and friends at my house. I made a facebook event and invited all my closest friends. People that I would take time out of my day to go to lunch with or can see myself hanging out with them alone for a few hours. People I would want my mom to meet. I ended up invite about 100 peoples. Hahaha. So far like 30 people confirmed they’re going. Paaaaaarty! Lame quiet party with no alcohol but I am sure everyone will have fun making 20+ new friends and eating yummy food cooked by my mum.

But the BEST part is the weekend before my yoebo is going to be in town for my cousin’s wedding/his tattoo convention. Then the weekend of my birthday party he’s going to fly in again!! So he can meet everyone and celebrate my birthday with me. YAY!!!!! Time to buy fabulous birthday dress!!!

But the MOST IMPORTANT part is my birthday wish list. bishes!!

1. A sewing machine
2. A sewing mannequin that you can pin clothes on.
3. A nail filing machine
4. Gift cards to places I can buy makeup: Nordstroms, MAC, Sephora, etc…
5. A UV light machine for your nails
6. Things I can decorate the interior of my house with. Dark red & gold themed.

Okay that is all. Hope everyone has a nice weekend

Edit: So yoebo’s mom is going to give me her old sewing machine from when she went to Fashion school. SUPER excited!! So what had happened was Yoebo read my xanga then went out in the morning and shopped at a sewing machine store. Lol! And he had all the grandmas grilling him about what kind of machine and mannequin he wanted. Mama Choe (yoebo’s umma) must have felt bad for her son so she decided to give me her precious machine instead! 

So now that is crossed off the list, and seeing that yoebo is actually taking this list seriously, I would like to add the following…

7. A love seat/small couch. Preferably in beige or dark red
8. A REALLY REALLY bright room lamp
9. A professional light up makeup case or makeup mirror, you know with all the light bulbs.

The end

This is the 7th couple at church that asked me to date their son. Apparently he is from a really nice church family. *roll eyes* One family used to call my mom every day and bring her presents every week until they talked to me and found out I had a boyfriend, now they don’t even acknowledge our presence anymore -_____-. Oh yea? Well I think your 40 year old something son sucks!!! Not that I ever met him or any other of these nice boys from these “nice church families.” Seriously, if they’re so nice why don’t they ever ever ever go to church with their parents?

Anyhow, you should watch out for “nice church people” the most. I mean I am one of those “nice church girls” and I am sure I would horribly shock any family once they got to know me beyond… uh.. what they know of me from that one hour they see me at church, you know, when I am on my BEST behavior.

With no pictures… as usual. Ugh!!

1. I forgot to bring the camera that oppa specifically bought for me to take pictures to post on xanga
2. I was too lazy to pose for the camera that oppa’s little sister let us borrow.

Highlights:
1. I got fake nails for the first time ever. I love they way they look. I think this is going to be a usual thing for me now. Oppa promises he will take me every time I visit Seattle. Yay!

2. I FINALLY know what the secret ingredient is in my FAVORITE sushi place (uh.. sushi stand at Southcenter mall hehe). It’s deep friend shredded carrots! I LOVE IT! I need to introduce this to San Francisco sushi restaurants!

3. Oppa’s mom wants me to eat more to ensure I have big………… because that’s what her son likes apparently -_____-

4. I wing womaned for all his friends at the club since I was the only girl for the night. They’re hopeless. I spoon fed them cute girls all night  who were “down” and they still let empty handed or with the regrettable ones. The good thing is that I find out girls are REALLY friendly at the clubs.

5. We ate KFC. I am reunited with my loves, the hot wings. Lol I had some today too! <3

6. Pike’s Place & Melting Pot. Typical touristy places. I always enjoy them.

7. I hung out during boy’s Poker Night. I sat in the corner by myself playing Bust-a-Move. I was hoping to come back with loads of information about what boys do for my girlfriends. My suspicions were correct. Boys are blah!!

8. I discovered Fred Meyers. Best one stop shop EVER!!

9. They might as well have IVed me with milk tea tapioca because oppa owns a tapioca store. YUMMMM

Now Im back to home, school, and work. Until next time

So in the middle of class yesterday we had to go to this feel good lecture by this feel good professor and book author. I came late as usual so I snuck in about half way through the lecture. The stage behind him had bullet points that basically said that we are living in a world that is too fast pace and all the technology around us is connecting us beyond what anyone ever imagined.

I roll my eyes as I listen to him talk about forgiving people to free yourself and about just taking the time out of the day to be conscious about who you are and what you’re doing. To feel the texture of the chair you are sitting in, to listen to the clock chime. To take the time to yourself and not be pressured by what the world demands of you. And by the world he means your job, your family, your fast pace life.

I’m sitting there like.. no duh. If it’s one thing I’m good at, it’s listening to my body and taking time to love myself. I can feel the warmth of my soft blanket forever! Why do you think I’m late to school everyday! Hehe. On a more serious note, I take a lot of time off from my stressful life to just enjoy being me. Enjoy sitting on the couch and watching my favorite tv episodes. Enjoy looking at all the pretty colors and textures of all the orchids that decorate my house. Of course it slows me down in school and work at times but I am okay with that : )

So I’m thinking this “professor” is like Mr. Obvious. Who needs someone to tell them to be happy? We can all do that on our own.. right?

At one point he does a quick exercise, he tells everyone to close their eyes and think about someone that has hurt us and we cannot and have not forgiven. I could not think of one person. Anyone’s who’s ever hurt me in my life, I simply let go of them. I don’t harbor angry feelings towards them. They simply cease to exist to me and I move on happily. So I sit there with my eyes open, swinging my feet back and forth waiting for him to move onto the next cheesy exercise. Except I look around the room and I cannot believe the amount of people I see who start to tear up and cry, including my usually goofball friends. Even in that 30 seconds, some people felt sooo much emotion. This whole time they were holding onto this hate and anger, their whole lives was suppressing these feelings for someone. And to just take 30 seconds to sit and reflect, everything came out. I could not believe it. Wow…

Next, he told  them to FORGIVE. To let go. He made one interesting statement. When you FORGIVE someone, you are doing it for yourself. You don’t have to forget, because how can you? That bad person who hurt you is probably going to continue to be a bad person and hurt everyone. But when you forgive them, you do it for yourself, you give yourself the opportunity to be happy.

So xangans… I was skeptical of this feel good man techniques but now I am a believer. I urge you to do the same thing… Forgive someone so you can feel free and be happy

I fall into the GOOD friend category. Even though I have the heart and brains of a GREAT friend, I only act like a good friend.. therefore I am only a good friend.

One of my best friends has been in a psychologically borderline physically abusive relationship for the past 5 years. I can’t tell you the number of times I hear bone chilling, arm hair raising stories from her about him. A lot of the times I want to cry and hug her and beg her to leave him FINALLY. And I can’t tell you the number of times I feel angry and sad and disappointed when she goes back to him. Every time I hear on the news about domestic violence, I pray that my best friend is safe and that he isn’t hurting her. And I pray that she one day wakes up and LEAVES him!

But I’ve NEVER told her this. Instead, I just listen quietly to all her stories. I ask objective questions but never once have I given her any advice or even shown any signs of disapproval. When he’s around, I act distant but friendly even though on the inside I want to shove him on the ground and call the police to arrest him! Even though on the inside I fear for her life around him, heck I fear for MY life around him.

Everyone around her yells at her and tells her what a bad decision she is making by going back to him time and again. Everyone makes it VERY obvious that they hate him with all their guts. But not me. My reasoning behind itt is… I don’t ever want her to feel too ashamed to come to me and tell me about her pain. I figure, if I keep disapproving of her, she will stop coming to me out of shame. I want to be an open source to her at all times, no matter how bad the situation gets, I wanted her to be able to come to me comfortably. This makes me a GOOD friend right?

Recently,, she was going to move in and have a baby with him. And all her friends (not mutual friends with me) got together and had a forced intervention with her. From what I heard, there was a lot of crying, a lot of yelling, a lot of hate. But it all came from a place of love. And… it worked! She finally woke up upon seeing the effect of her relationship on her friends, the effect of her friends’ love for her well being. This here makes them GREAT friends.

I always have. Even when I was in elementary school and everyone gave out Valentines and it was a competition who gave the best one. And whoever’s mom spent the most money on the biggest baddest Valentine, that kid was everyone’s friend for the day. I hated it when it was the one kid I normally hate but had to be nice to cuz they gave me a nice valentine.

When I was in high school and boys I didn’t like tried to give me flowers and candy and confess their love to me….. Ughh… AWKWARD! Can you imagine me literally turning and running down the hallway in the opposite direction as soon as I saw said boys? True story.

Even when I was in relationships during Valentine’s day.. it never worked out. Somehow I always ended up feeling really.. disappointed.

Last year with Won was probably the best. Fancy dinner, cute but failed trip to the Space Needle, super romantic and funny end cap. But we had a really big fight earlier that day. And I spent half a day wandering the mall by myself until we finally made up at the food court. That sucked.

This year I woke up and felt that it would be a bad day. I was late for school, which got Won and I into a fight. I don’t really consider it a fight because there is nothing to argue. He pissed me off because he said something that insulted me in what I consider the 2nd worst possible way to insult me. Then that got me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Surprisingly school put me a good mood for once. But now midnight’s struck and we still haven’t made up. So there goes another Valentine’s I’ll try to forget.

Because it’s Valentine’s Day, any fight is considered a MAJOR fight because it’s like.. how could you?! On Valentine’s Day!?! Then all the pictures everyone is posting on facebook of all the flowers and chocolates they get doesn’t help. I dont think its so much that I demand something material on Valentine’s Day but I am fully expecting all cheesiness and confessions of love and all that warm junk.

Anyhow, a couple of my girlfriends and I are getting together to make Chocolate dipped strawberries (are they even in season?) to cure my cravings so I’m pretty excited about that!

I am supposed to go to Seattle this weekend but with the way things are going I may just postpone the trip or go to New York instead. I can’t put myself physically in an uncomfortable situation. I know it’s not going to make things any better but that is just how I feel right now. I don’t think I’ve ever been so honest on xanga in years, ever since I’ve been with Won I haven’t really discussed the darker things in our relationship but right now I am mad. So I feel like I can. Because right now I am much more concerned with how I feel than how he feels or how we feel.

Do I really need to write? Doesn’t the title say it all?

Okay so we had a quick birthday dinner at this place (TOYOSE) nicknamed the Korean Garage.. except it really WAS a restaurant built inside someone’s garage in a totally residential neighborhood. Weird. It was really a whole in the wall kind of place with tall skinny hot Korean waitresses who wore revealing clothes. Wow, did I just walk into some Korean drama movie!? They’re known for their soju, which tastes like juice. And their food is totally bar food. I could have sworn their hot pot is made of whatever random veggies and meats they had left over from making the other plates, it couldn’t have been more random, oh yea, and a chunk of instant ramen to top it off. But they were charging real Korean restaurant prices. I guess to drunk people any food is good at any price. The place was packed! It was my first time there but all my friends frequent it frequently so they must be doing something right!

Birthday girl showing off her bartender tricks

We meet again at the club later that night

I go no where without my partner in crime. You may have seen her before… in all my other pictures. Hehe. She is so freakishly tall while I am so freakishly small.

Running into old friends randomly is the best part of clubbing in my opinion. They’re drunk, you can’t hear each other, and everyone is just happy to see you!

My famously drunk cousin telling us when it’s safe to cross the street. Lol thanks….
Funny story.. so my group of girls ended up hanging out with a group of guys we met at the club. One of the guy was Korean and from Seattle so we nicknamed him Won #2. The next day we facebook stalked them and found out Won #2 actually knows REAL Won. Hahahahaha. TRIPLE DATE with the cousins and the Koreans!

Later that weekend we had a Phamily get together for New Years! My brother just got married last year so this year he has to give us red envelopes! Except he took our dignity first, he made us wish him and his wife a Happy New Years in Vietnamese while bowing in front of them. Lol! They had it all planned and were enjoying it so much. I hate them -____-

Happy New Years!! :

After reading this guy’s blog about saving some dogs, I was totally touched. To be honest, I’m not much of an animal person so although I feel a little bit of sadness when I see kittens in bushes or dogs dripping wet in the rain, it never occurred to me that I should do something for them. So the other day I am driving my girlfriend to the mall and we’re stopped at a red light. The light turns green and suddenly she screams at me to not go.

“What?!”

She screams a dog just ran underneath my car.

“Are you sure?!” I screamed back because by now all the cars behind me were honking.

She keeps crying “What do I do? What do I do?” 

Hell if I should know. So I tell her to get out and check. Sure enough, the dog was hiding RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY TIRE. *sigh* She tries to scare the dog away but it runs into busy traffic.. gah!!

Again with the “Van! What do I do?! What do I do?!’

Ughh!! She’s the dog person, not me! “Uh…. pick it up! Bring it in!”

“Are you SURE?!”  Ugh… I’m not a dog person but doesn’t mean I am heartless!
So we take the dog to the pet hospital who turns him away and tells us to take him to the SPCA instead. The dog smelled bad the whole time so we drove with the window down. He was very sweet, he did not bark even once! But he did cry a little bit when we noticed he had an injured leg. I gave him half my special cookie from Taiwan and that made him lick my friend a lot. HEhe. Anyhow he sat like a very good dog on my friend’s lap the whole time, he wasn’t fussy or difficult. She couldn’t help but laugh at me. I think she was very surprised that I let the dog in my car because it is unlike me to be so nice -____-

Anyhow, I hope the owners come looking for their little dog. Or someone wants to adopt him because he is a good dog. And I am sure with a long bath and some fur trimming he will look very grand!