February 15, 2011
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I Hate Valentine’s Day
I always have. Even when I was in elementary school and everyone gave out Valentines and it was a competition who gave the best one. And whoever’s mom spent the most money on the biggest baddest Valentine, that kid was everyone’s friend for the day. I hated it when it was the one kid I normally hate but had to be nice to cuz they gave me a nice valentine.
When I was in high school and boys I didn’t like tried to give me flowers and candy and confess their love to me….. Ughh… AWKWARD! Can you imagine me literally turning and running down the hallway in the opposite direction as soon as I saw said boys? True story.
Even when I was in relationships during Valentine’s day.. it never worked out. Somehow I always ended up feeling really.. disappointed.
Last year with Won was probably the best. Fancy dinner, cute but failed trip to the Space Needle, super romantic and funny end cap. But we had a really big fight earlier that day. And I spent half a day wandering the mall by myself until we finally made up at the food court. That sucked.
This year I woke up and felt that it would be a bad day. I was late for school, which got Won and I into a fight. I don’t really consider it a fight because there is nothing to argue. He pissed me off because he said something that insulted me in what I consider the 2nd worst possible way to insult me. Then that got me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Surprisingly school put me a good mood for once. But now midnight’s struck and we still haven’t made up. So there goes another Valentine’s I’ll try to forget.
Because it’s Valentine’s Day, any fight is considered a MAJOR fight because it’s like.. how could you?! On Valentine’s Day!?! Then all the pictures everyone is posting on facebook of all the flowers and chocolates they get doesn’t help. I dont think its so much that I demand something material on Valentine’s Day but I am fully expecting all cheesiness and confessions of love and all that warm junk.
Anyhow, a couple of my girlfriends and I are getting together to make Chocolate dipped strawberries (are they even in season?) to cure my cravings so I’m pretty excited about that!
I am supposed to go to Seattle this weekend but with the way things are going I may just postpone the trip or go to New York instead. I can’t put myself physically in an uncomfortable situation. I know it’s not going to make things any better but that is just how I feel right now. I don’t think I’ve ever been so honest on xanga in years, ever since I’ve been with Won I haven’t really discussed the darker things in our relationship but right now I am mad. So I feel like I can. Because right now I am much more concerned with how I feel than how he feels or how we feel.
Comments (9)
I hope things will get better for you <3
Valentine’s day is a bit over the top…for people but it isn’t everything.
I just wrote my blog and came to read yours because of the title. Valentines Day is overrated!!! I felt the same way when I saw all the fb pictures.
Hi, do hope all is well.
aww =(
I’m on a similar boat. not that i totally care for all the materials, but it would’ve been nice to get flowers.
hope it gets better soon sweetie <3
and if not, go to ny and have a blast
I bet he’s feeling super crummy dear
<3 Cheer up!!!
awwwwww
dam! I think you should go to nyc, it’ll be mad fun! anyways, hahaha i finally got my first flowers in my whole life..i’ve got a… LOL..very interesting story to tell you..hahaha its not romantic AT ALL!..quite dark actually X_X
I feel the same way you do, too. I went to his house with ingredients to make him a meal but he ended up not being at home. I see pictures of roses and chocolates on fb and I get sad. All of the guys I ever dated, including the current one, never seems to get that it would be nice to get some flowers and chocolates once in a while instead of cash or useful gifts like laptops, monitors, etc. Mine gave me money last money and said “happy early valentine’s day”.
that is terrible! though i don’t know you and your guy’s personalities, i would personally not take shit! because it builds up after time and starts to bring you down. be strong and do your thing, hun!
straight or not, girlfriends are always the best company.
Come anyway! I’m free this weekend to hang out with you! And I just baked a red velvet cheesecake. I’ll save you a slice!