April 8, 2013
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Stress Causes Illness
This past weekend was both my birthday and my bachelorette party. I had a good time for the most part and loved seeing my friends who I have not seen in a long time.
But, if I had to go back and do it again, I would not. I won’t go into details about all that happened but in the end, my feelings were definitely hurt. And I know many more will too once I reach out to everyone.The aftermath of the events is causing me a lot of emotional stress. For the first time in my life I want to tell people exactly what is on my mind. Odd because in the past, I have ALWAYS taken the high road, cut my losses, and avoided any sort of confrontation. Surprisingly, Won is calm and completely supporting me. He is going to eat the cost so I am free to express myself to everyone, something I have never ever done with anyone (except him and my mom.) But I know if I do not do it, the emotional stress is going to consume me.It is going to be completely new territory for me, telling people how I feel. Wish me luck.Back up plan: chicken out and Won will still eat the cost and let me cut my losses without confrontation.I thought I would forever love San Francisco and my friends and familiar scenes, but I am starting to feel like this place carries a negative energy for me. Maybe I’ve outgrown the streets and the people here. I can not wait for Won to come pick me up this weekend and take me back to my new home in Washington.
Comments (8)
Happy B-day! Sorry your weekend didn’t go a well as planned. Hopefully nobody tried to squish you like a bug like someone attempted with me, haha. =)
it’s okay! we may grow and/or change while others around us don’t. it’s normal. whatever makes you happy. enjoy your fresh start. =]
happy belated. hope you feel better once you are reunited with Won.
Omg if I didn’t tell people how I really felt I’d combust. Do it. You’ll feel a lot better. Sometimes writing emails works well for me because then I can think about what to say before I say it, so it comes out in the nicest way I can muster. Then they can read it in their own time, alone, and have time to process the information instead of immediately going on the defensive.
you look like you had so much fun!
Good luck with the confrontation. You’ve made me curious now! Only because I’m a gossip. lol But if you have trouble, just remember to speak from your view, about how whatever happened made you feel and how it was not okay. If the people you’re confronting can understand that, I think there’s hope for a brighter future. =]
Oh no, hope the negative vibe doesn’t last long! That would be sad.
Thank you so much for the invite. I honestly looked forward to it for months and had a great time!!! I hate confrontation so I wouldn’t be able to do it – good luck with whatever decision you make. 
See you soon!