May 3, 2011

  • Sleepless in Seattle

    Except I am really in San Francisco. And I can't sleep. It sucks.

    I feel like I've been stuck in a rut lately. Because I've been enrolled in a FULL TIME school program for the last year and a half I haven't had time for ANYTHING ELSE besides my business. Work is doing very well, I am updating all my tools and kit because I want everything to look really chic. I have decided I am going to double up the amount of tools I have so that I can have 2 separate kits, one for travel and one for the studio so I dont have to keep packing and unpacking so much. I am also going to redecorate the studio so that its chic.

    Aside from that I haven't had the chance to do any fun artistic projects with photo shoots or fashion shows or even going to take private classes. Nothing that has helped me developed my skills as an artist. I'm doing the same work I did last year, which isn't a bad thing necessarily. I mean, I am booking at almost twice the rate I was last year because clientelle builds with time. But personally I would like to continue developing artistically.

    I get a little excited and sad when I see all these new artists posting all these pictures of photo shoots they do on facebook. Excited because I am inspired to do projects based on theirs. And sad that I know I simply do not have the time. Not for another few months at least until I am done with school. I feel like everyone is passing me up in the artistic world. And since when did everyone and their mama become a makeup artist?

    I guess I am just feeling stuck and dissatisfied in myself. I wonder if my clients can pick up on it in the way I carry myself?

    Let me just make a disclaimer, I am not saying I am doing bad work on my clients, no I am doing the great work I've always done. I just feel I should be farther along artistically than where I am.

    I should also explain to everyone that the Bridal Beauty work I do is quite different than the Artistic fun photo shoot type work that artists do. Bridal Beauty will always be my main squeeze. But I want to do so much artistically too :(

    Positive thoughts. Positive thoughts.

Comments (3)

  • Success in business is made of no-time-for-anything-else and I suspect you have a drive for success.

  • Yeah - I get what you mean by a difference in Bridal vs Artistic Photoshoot work. I've felt the same sort of, but in the sense that I need to lose weight before I feel confident in front of a lens!!

    PS. I rec'ed you to my sister who's getting marrriiiieeeed.

  • I miss being in San Francisco. I love it there. =(

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