May 22, 2013

• Update on My Life.

  My sad sad life. Okay, I'm being melodramatic. It's not sad, it's my every dream, to be a housewife without having to cook or clean unless I want to. I mostly just watch Housewives series now, except we're not rich like that nor I am dramatic like that so I can't really relate. But I just like having the tv on ALL THE TIME cuz the quiet is lonely.

  I ended up not getting a job in Seattle because I travel back to SF sooo much for weeks at a time. I work when I am in SF at least. I am thinking of starting up a private beauty concierge service in Seattle so I can work without committing to a schedule. I'll service really busy working moms, and busy executives, and really vain people who don't want to be seen going to a salon to reveal their best beauty secrets. 

  With the wedding coming up, Won wants me to not focus on work but more on the wedding.Which is fun but I can't help but feel so guilty because everyday (middle of night really) I am charging his credit card a couple of hundreds of dollars worth of supplies yet I am not contributing to our bank account in any way. All our money is tied up in the wedding so it's not like we have the extra money for me to invest in new supplies and contracts and insurance for my new business idea. 

  I go through very short but very real bouts of depression because I feel useless and guilty. Guilty for spending money without making any. And guilty for leaving my mom by herself. It never really occurred to me before how big and lonely my mom's house is until I was there last week by myself for a day and I wanted to cry. So I came back to Seattle and unleashed the dragon and Won was like wtf is wrong with you? He kept asking if I'm pregnant cuz I am super emotional and tired and don't want to be touched cuz I'm sore. Conclusion: We don't know. We don't want to know because I need to live in this delusion that I am not going to get too fat that I cannot fit into my wedding dress which was altered down like a glove for me. 

  But most of the time I'm happy. Won signed me up for the gym, and cake decorating class, and bead making class and whatever the hell else I promise I want to do. I went to the gym a total of 3  times in the last month. I love taking Zumba but people at the gym at bitches. ESPECIALLY the bitches who work at the front desk. I don't know why they are such douchebags. 1. They're not good looking. 2. They're obviously not rich because they're working the front desk of a stupid gym. 3. They're not that buff, my husband can come in and kick anybody's ass. So like, WTF is their deal?! They treat me like I am so bothersome asking them questions that are not posted online. Like I am so annoying, even though they aren't doing anything else at the moment! And I always see them power trip and act like douchebags to other gym members too. And the girls are not very nice here. I am super smiley and everyone has bitch face on. Maybe I'm not serious enough about the gym *sigh* I think we are going to cancel my membership, NOT BECAUSE I NEVER GO, but because I don't like the peoplet here. 

  How to end this on a good note: Pictures of the wedding crafts I've been doing..

   
  Wedding shoes came in the mail! I bought 3 other pairs before this but returned them all before I found this one. I wish I knew how to better capture light and crystal but in person this mother efffer lights up like a Christmas tree in your wildest dreams. I am sooo pleasantly surprised at the quality of the rhinestone considering how cheap these were! I really hope our wedding day photographers  & videgraphers can capture the beautiful light from these! They come in my size and are 6inches!! even thought they're advertised at 5 3/4, which originally turned me off from them cuz I was adamant my wedding shoes HAD to be 6+ inches. 

  
  Here is a comparison picture with one of my favorite 6 inch shoe that I've had and loved since forever. 

  
  I'm spray painting chandeliers gold because our wedding colors are pink and gold. So I got these white chandelier and went to town with gold spray paint. I also did not like the original chandelier crystals beads that came with them so I ordered better quality crystals to hand on these. YAY! This was a sample set of 5. I just ordered an additional 25. Plus 300+ pink candles. And now I need to go buy more spray paint. and YAY! Let's light up this mther effer and dazzle in gold!

  

  
  I also thought the votives candle holders were too plain so I bought gold glass paint and am now taking on the task of hand dipping 300+ candle holders.FML. The first 20 were fun and now I'm like FML people better appreciate these!! Need to buy more paint. 

  
  It's surprising how little cupcake holders are.. Can you imagine these itty bitty little things are going to hold 200+ cucpcakes when they're done? 

  
  Fabric swatches for the guys...

  
  And flower shopping at the the Flower Mart to get an idea on pricing so that ALL our wedding guests can have a fresh flower on their plate. 

  

  Won's double wedding band that we just picked up. We're going to have them sand down the smoothness for an rougher more textured look. And mine is still not done yet

  
  And here is me. Looking how I feel.. 23 years ago. Hmph! 

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