February 14, 2006

• Hi youngvan! It’s been 728 (wow, that’s a big number) days since you joined Xanga… won’t you support us by going Premium?

  Wow.. 728
  days.. that IS a big number.. anyhow. No I will not go premium even
  though the promise of unlimited posting of pictures is alluring. No
  thank you. I will not pay for speaking a bunch of yada like how Tony does.

  Well, today, my 728th day on xanga.. I feel like crap. I wished I were
  standing on a solid black floor with a million white China plates and
  tea pots to throw at a black porclean wall… and no obligation to
  clean it up at all..

  Do you REALLY want to hear about what makes me angry..? No? mee niether
  damnit!!!! Im sure you dont want to hear about how I STILL cut even
  though I have 4 fuckin classes. Im sure you dont want to hear about how
  2 weeks into the semester I am sooo damn behind in schoolwork for 4
  damn classes. Im sure you dont want to hear about how annoying parents
  are. They make me vow to never have kids. I wouldnt want a young
  product of me to hate my very guts. I wouldnt want to be the one to
  tell them they have to fold their clothes right away or that they can’t
  follow thier dream and own heart’s desires becuase they have to follow
  mines first. Im sure you dont want to hear that.

  Im also sure you dont want to hear about how tomorrow is Valentines Day
  and how I dont have a Valentines. I wish that was the worst of my
  fuckin heartbreaks cuz then I’d be pretty damn happy. And if you don’t
  get all that mumbo jumbo, oh fuckin well. I am not explaining anything.
  No one wants to hear this trauma drama so Im not gonna tell it.
  Instead….

  Today Crystal offered me a
  piece of assorted chocolate from her humble box of Valentines assorted
  chocolate. I was feeling a lil risky so I went for a milk chocolate
  which had chocolate caramel inside… ummmm.. melted right into me.
  Thank you Crystal! And thank you Kenneth for allowing me to steal a milk chocolate candy from your box of Valentine chocolates.

  And thank you Raymond Vo for coming by and taking me out on a mini trip with his friends: Calvin, Joey, and Edmond
  (?). Hanging with non-usual type people is always refreshing. I think
  I’ve made quite a first impression. I break everything. yay me.

  But the best and most exciting was a call from non other Victoria.
  We got a date tomorrow at the front of the school with a box of
  assorted chocolates! Mods 19 20. I’m so excited I can hardly wait!!
  Thats just what I need, a friend that I havent seen all semester with a
  box of chocolates. No one else in invited.. not in my book anyhow. And
  if yer not “absolute best friend” material, you better go annoy
  somebody else tomorrow cuz I’m not in the mood to watch anybody be
  cute. FYI, if you don’t have assorted chocolates of your own to share
  with me, you can definitely cross yourself off the “absolute best
  friend” list.

  Valentines day. I’ve always kind of liked this day, I’ve always thought
  it was really cute. but this year.. I feel like slamming heavy doors on
  flower stems and  beating the stuffing out of teddy bears. I’m
  just in that kind of mood. Cupid couldnt be any uglier and neither
  could the souls of some very beautiful people. Mr. Right could propose
  to me tomorrow and I would shove him in a puddle of his own tears.

  I’m a brat. I’m just a little brat. Im a mouthy little brat. Thats what
  I am. Thats what I feel like I am. You should just stay away from me
  for a while until I am back to my happy self. Cuz I get REALLy mouthy
  and I’ll make you feel like shit too. Ask Matthew Baek. Or maybe he likes to be abused. I dunno whats his deal. I woulda called it quits a long time ago but thats just me.

  Oh, and while Im in such a good mood, I want to thank Perriesha and Julley for
  being there when I needed. Thanks a lot. You girls made the night that
  much more bearable and enjoyable. LoL. I sound sarcastic but I really
  do appreciate what you gave me to eat and the muscles that you
  willingingly lent me. Thank you.

  I think.. I will drown my mood in sleep….
  LoL. I can’t wait till mod 19 20 tomorrow!!!

  © VaN PhaM
  

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